ouh cry :')

 Will you cry if you be me? here's the story ..

ak chat ngan eryn. kitorang main lawan2 KAU ADE KE . begini yer :

E- eryn

A- ai 

E: aku masok menari. best gile. kau ade ke? 

A: eleh. aku ad org sayang aku. kau ade ke? 

E: aku ad. mak bpak ak syg ak. sbb tu dy bagi ak masok menari. 

A: ouh. yelah kan? ak lupe. haha. tak macam aku kan ? 

E: sian kau. hahahahha

A: hehe :)  <- actually a fake smile

E: mira, aritu mak ak pujuk mak kau suh bg masok menari.

A: hah? yeke? pastu pastu?

E: mak kau ckp " pelajaran tak pandai. nak masok menari"

A: oh. bg dy, pelajaran lebih penting dr impian :) (sambil menangis)

E: ololo.. mira. jgn nanges. jgn sedeh. ta lawa nnty 

A: mmg tak lawa poun ..

E: awk lawa lahh. awk salu lawa.. 

A: ahhaha.. 

And i continued crying.. i cant stand it, so i go to my bedroom and cry. with a sound.

i cried so hard. and i wish you, my mom, to know that. 

but im too embarass to cry infront of you.

you make my studying important than my health , my ambittion .

im so hoping you'll understand me ! i really did hope for that.

u said i always shout at you. yes, i admit. ofcourse i did that !

WHY?

because you going too far ! you keep on forcing me what to do. and yes, i did what you told me to. 
i study sometimes in my bedroom quietly. have you ever peek ?
how i wish you knew what am i doing in that room !
i did my best to be a smart girl. 
i did my best to be a great daughter. 

this is the reason why i always wanted a boyfriend :)

i also want to feel how it feel to be loved. 

please? would you, my mom, please cared about what i wanted to be.

please care about what i intrested in. 

please make me feel like u love me ! dont keep on force me to like what you like.

im sick of it. i swear i did. you make me wanna hate you. but i cant.

because you are my MOTHER. 

how i wish you could understand me. i wish you could read this. 
i love you mom . i love you so much :'(

thanks sbb bagi mia mate Bengkak..